Dear Aidan - 9 months

A few years ago, I saw a post on a friend's blog that consisted of a letter she wrote to her daughters. Now that Aidan is here, I thought it might be a good idea to write a few letters to him over the years that he can one day look back on read - if he so chooses.

Aidan, 

I can't believe how quickly time has passed. I remember every second of your birth, I remember the first time I saw your handsome face, I remember the day we came home from the hospital...I remember everything (which is saying a lot because, baby, your momma has an awful memory!). Remembering every detail of your life doesn't make it slow down, though, and as we quickly approach your 1st birthday, I can't help but wonder where the time went. As I sit here watching you walk along the couch, a skill you learned only a few days ago, I feel such a mix of bittersweet emotions. You're growing up so fast, every day you learn something new and I know that it won't be long before you're walking and talking and off to school.

As you grow, I pray that you will always want to be "mommy's little boy" and that you will never hesitate to come to me, whether it be a skinned knee or a broken heart. You are my baby, and I love you will every ounce of my being. I will never judge you and I will never turn you away. Never be afraid to come to me, my sweet, sweet boy. I promise you that I will always be your mom first, and your friend second, but either way and no matter the circumstance, I will always be here for you and I will always love you. No matter how big you get, you will always be my little blonde haired, blue-eyed boy.


I pray that your dad and I will always make the best decisions in raising you. We aren't perfect, and I know that we will make mistakes, but you are the one area of our lives where mistakes are not an option. Every day, I love at your big blue eyes and your big, bright smile and want to be a better person, both for myself and for you. You have changed our lives and you have such an impact on the choices that we make on a day-to-day basis. Everything we do is for you and every decision we make is with you in mind.

Never be ashamed of who you are or where you want to go in life. I promise that your dad and I will support you no matter what. When it comes time to decide your future, we will support you whether you want to be a rock star or a rocket scientist. We will always give you the choice to make your own decisions. You're 9 months old and I cannot believe how smart you are. Your future will hold no limitations, you will have every opportunity to be whatever you want to be.

When I was pregnant with you, I often worried about whether or not I would be a good mom. I worried that I would make the wrong decisions on your behalf and that I would somehow mess up your life. When you were born, every fear I ever harnessed just disappeared. I know that I am the best mom that I can be for you. I know that regardless of the decision that I make, your best interest in my biggest concern, and you will love me no matter what. I know that on any given day, I would give up everything in this world just to see you smile and know that you are happy. I know that even on my worst day, you will still look up at me with your big blue eyes and smile at me, making everything okay again. 

You are a blessing, Aidan. God could not have given your father and I a better gift. I am a better person because of you and I live my life to higher standards because I want to be better for you. I pray that you will always know that my love for you is unconditional and that if you ever doubt anything, it will never be how much I love you. You are truly amazing sweetheart and I look forward to each day that I get to watch you grow and change. 

I love you,

Mom